sad.

I am immensely, unnecessarily depressed right now. It's a little silly, and yet no less sad.

My first fandom, the fandom of my heart is not on the yuletide list. It made it in last year -- hence my spending most of the summer and fall happily plotting -- but this year, it was rejected. I think because once upon a time it was a large fandom, and there was no one around to say, "No, no, that stuff on ff.net is all old! I promise!" The yuletide process is a bit of a mystery to me, so I know I wasn't. I'd learned just enough to make sure I nominated it. Sigh. Misery.

I got by before RW/YST made it into Yuletide, of course, and there are so many shiny fandoms that did get in -- but this one was mine, y'know? I mean, you guys get that sort of feeling. We'll just see if I'm un-depressed enough before sign ups end.

:( :( :( :(!!!